
I have a fear of authority figures. Or maybe I should say had. I worried that my comments and questions would seem stupid or unimportant. I dreaded that glare of disgust or impatience I might get. My fragile self-esteem couldn’t take it.
Even after becoming a Christian, I hated to approach my pastor when we lived in Texas. He had much better things to do than talk to me. (In my opinion, not his.) If you think I’m exaggerating my feelings, I’m not. But praise God, things changed when the Lord made a few adjustments to my thinking.
First, He impressed upon me who I am and what He thinks about me. I’m justified and declared “not guilty” of sin. I’m not condemned. I’ve been sanctified and made acceptable in Jesus Christ. I am a new creation. I’m blessed with every spiritual blessing. I am even God’s work of art and much more. In case you want to know how I know, take a look at Romans, 1 and 2 Corinthians, Galatians, Ephesians, Colossians, and 2 Timothy in the New Testament.
Now that I realize I’d believed a lie about myself, that I was insignificant, God has shown me the truth and took me a step further. We always have an open invitation to approach the throne of God. Hebrews 4:16 says, “Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”
Wow, I don’t have to feel intimidated by asking for an audience with the Maker of the Universe.
“Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” Matthew 6: 26
Dear Lord, I thank You that You loved me enough to die for me on a cruel Roman cross so that I might enter the Kingdom of God. Allow me to continually remember my worth in Your sight, not because of what I did, but because of who You are and who You’ve declared me to be. In Jesus name, Amen.
I am thankful to be His. I am thankful I can go to Him with any question, any concern, any worry. I am thankful I can praise Him, too. 🙂
So true, Melissa. I’m reminded of the verse that invites us to cast all our care upon Him.
Yes, everything changes when we know who we belong to!
Ava, and isn’t it a blessing we don’t have to carry the concern.
Thanks for sharing your authentic thoughts and struggles. As a pastor’s wife for 18 years, I understand how people (myself included), sometimes think a pastor is unapproachable or we place them on a type of spiritual pedestal. So thankful that’s not how it’s supposed to be and what their calling is in our lives. And thankful the ultimate audience of One is THE ONE. God Almighty.
Karen, I’ve often wondered what it’s like to be a pastor’s wife. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized pastors and their wives are like anyone else – just called to serve God’s purpose in a special way. Thank you for your comment.
Lovely words of encouragement for all of us. God wants us and looks forward to spending time with us. He values us so we should value ourselves too.
You are so right and I don’t know why it took so many years for me to realize that.